out of chaos comes this beauty...

upon nostalgia, ill sit here and contradict my over experienced warped wits and when i say this i mean blind-sided and bitch smacked in the face with an epiphany. as some may know or heard me say "pain is only in your mind, you can control it" which is true but, only until one finds something that makes them feel. to be brought of out the darkness or sub-conscience "numbness" of ones' life; then is when you turely feel many complex emotions that now ponder at mind and evidently we come out of the coma of an un realistic, un adventured, "normal" serene life and thus start our own awakening of what the real world and real life is truley unfolding about in our way.