is it too late too feel?

i effkin hate this day of  "lover" ! a.k.a.[Valentines days]

now if you assholes would just got over yourselves and stop trying to make up a holiday for everything that comes to mind then we can see the real ones for their true meaning.

Valentines day is not a day to exchange love notes, flowers, candy, w/e your great minds can come up with just to get eachother into the sack when the lights are out, but you would then know that this day is in fact about a saint , saint valentine, and if  i remember correctly after 12 years of catholic schooling saint valentine was a martyr of the christian fait and he recognized toward the roman catholics.

get.-.yoo.-.facts.-.right

lol good times at kristens house talking about everything and their mother and sitting here all three of us in  the air bed waiting for mike to fall asleep so we can do vishous things to him. ohh yea i just broke upo with my dominatrix buddy lmao =]...sitting here  dead drinking smoking talking about lots loves problems and futrues good times then we jsut go on the comp to check out the pain olymics with sum crazy guy cutting off his penis and testies and 2 girls and one cup lmao... hehehehe and then just youtubing all sorts of wicked thingss yeaaaa  ohhh and pauly my lover (not lmao) promised to go to prom with me haha thats pretty funny but we shall see hehehe =] godd night fuckers

and happy almost christman

peace and out

ohh god she is soo perfect and yet im soo scared to even be in her view.  JESUS grrrrrrrrr wtf this is what going to an all girls catholic school does to one.  u walk in and there ar like millions and millions of bitchy-nasty-fake girls and then  r like 3 real girls...and then u fall and fall real hard for someone-and then u r convienced that r u gay ...what goes on? idk anymore but all i can say is i will take over this innocent being and open her eyes to a beautfuly warped neon world slowly yet effective =]

and one more this while im venting about how horrible catholic schhol is- i am suppost to be on christmas break and yet i have soo much home work and projects then i have had in the past month-us teens,youth and furture of america, are being placed with so much pressuse and work and problems and r just completly messed up and turning either to drugs drinking death or just up tight and psycotic. thanks america for fucking up your own future-if we even make it to the future with all this global warming -- =]

p.s. the i am also convienced that the speares family is getting all knocked up soo they can rise up and dominate the world and try too takeee over all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol good day today.....

i feel all ....bubble inside =]

i know im a loser ...but a cute one !!

it was as if something had shown-an after glow of her true feeling. and she hide them very well under her puckered smile- the way she talked you could never tell the way she truly felt-she was denied all the love that was supplied in her heart-her feelings were torn apart. and the way she dealt with it nobody knows that secret is something that she beholds. and when she cries at night nobody hears-her heart pounds for love -her head aches for attention-the selfishness of her affection blinds her eyes of the true beauty that lies inside-she turns into two different side at two different times it is confusing in her own mind-she cannot find the comfort that she deserves, her life is a road of swerves. from one place to another from action to action her life her world her family is one big distraction to what she really wants to happen-but there is one water proof person in her life- they dry her eyes clean her mouth show her what love is all about-and when she’s with that person she knows the beauty that she behold but when its time to go home she is depressed-she does not want to think about the rest-how she is treated is something that is not said-and when she is there everyday she is scared with fright-and at night the only thing that she can pray is that god gets her though the next day.